When life gives you lemon...

i have problems

2004-07-09T13:11:00.000-07:00

mood

By now, you must know that i have problems. So why do i even state it? but anyways, i think my older cousins friend like me
>-<.... but my friend Lacresha like him (she just turned 14 by the way!) but now he's real mad at me so every time i see him he'll kick me or hit me. i tried to attack him back (you know me) but it never ends up right... why do i have to be so short! it's not fair. i need to take kick boxing...Why do i even tellyou people this?oh yeah, that took me a minute, cuase i have a computer and i can. that another problem of mine. The whole 'because i can' thing. it's going to get me raped or killed one of theses day. i need to stop making 'friends' over the internet that are 15 years older than me and are of the oppsist sex. yeah that's not safe anymore with all those wanna be pimps and just plane sick people anymore. I also need to stop talking to people i see on the street. this one guy walk up to me and started taking, but you could tell he was drunk. then he touch me and i slapped him an ran. eww prevets! the WROST thing in the world! there's always tryin to get that upskirt action. they should lock them all up and give them 25 year if you ask me. why do i get messed with so often though? i'm a really ugly preson.. well ok, it's hard being modest but i really do have beautiful eyes, white teeth,great smile and a nice body-minsu the highet but still, i'm one GREAT piece of work!it's even hard for me to believe that i can be so prefect. Well, to bad i hate prefect.but anyways i'm out

I'm in love and my two best friends are fighting

2004-06-25T15:31:00.000-07:00

I'm in love, yes i am and turly this time. Carde is so nice to me! he called me just to make sure my summer was going well and nothing would make me sad tis summer, so i thought. it tunrs out thought that my two very best friends are fighting at the momment and they won't tell me why! they won't talk to one another and keep talking bad about each other. How selfish! Now that i'm in love and have my onw problems i have to take care of there's too? Not fair! i know that i'm the one that alots of people turn to for help but, i have a life of my own thank you! I hope Carde calls me tonight, maybe he knows what going on. i need to talk to him tho, just to but idon't have his phone number! DAMNIT!! oh well i'll get it form him the next times he calls, if he doesn't tell it to me,i'll just have to hunt him down myslef, like i did last time, but that's another story, but NeWays, i miss him, i need someone to talk to. Maryam mad. Lacresha's mad. Kaice moved. Kendel moved. the rest are boys and one, wounldn't understand and two, woundn't give a fuck...great,well at least it's summer.....great.....

Moving on... the summer is herr so lets do SOMETHING! no time for being sad about it...and lets get sum ice cream

2004-06-17T12:03:00.000-07:00

Today should have been a happy day but it's not, so that's all i care about. Why am i NOT happy? I won the humanitaryain award, i'm out of the hells of 8th grade, i ever found sum guy who actualy LIKES my boldness and forwardness. I should be happy,i'm going to hawaii this summer,i got good grades, where going shopping today, but i'm not happy. i'm going to miss WMS. and all my little friends, i cried on promotion night, it was really sad.The only thing that i'm looking forward to this summer is chattin with my friends and talking with Carde, the new boy, i dun like Evan no more, he isn't as real as he used to be. I'm going to miss my world music and culture class. We played Jerry Springer and American Idol all the time and it was really fun. My mom told me to get a life, i told her that she need to get her own and stay out of mind. She then told me that sharing is caring and walked off. Funny isn't she? But NewAys yesterday was fun. We didn't have to go the school so Me and my friend Maryam walked to this cool Japanens store called Uwajimaya (Oaw Wa Gi Maiya). We saw four of my other friends, and decide to have lunch there. the most of us had noddles, but Maryam had to have $20 in dounuts. She is going to be FAT when she grows up. I told her that too but she said she's not cuz she does yoga. Not for long, i told her. Not for long. Afterwards we walked to her house. theres two vert steep hill that you had to get over and there was no other way to get to her house. I was fine with the walk. I live on top of sum speep hills too. she would have been fine too if she hadn't ate all those dounuts. i could swear that she was going to be sick real soon. She manage to hold it in all the way to the house and she even got to the bathroom too. After we stayed at her house we went back to school. Carde had decided to stay at the school instead of going down town wit us so i brougth him some japanese candy. He wasn't going to eat it untill i showed him that it was safe. i swear that he ate the whole danm bag in what, 5 seconds? I was so funny though! i told him not to bit it, but he did and sour foam started to come out! i was laughing my ass off! he's so funny.i also own him an ice cream bar. He handed it to me at lunch and said 'Here' i thought that he was giving it to me cuz i was wainting for my ice cream to come. So i ate it. When he came back, he told me that i was really a wired person, stealing peoples ice cream. i laughed about it thought and so did he. Oh my god so many people thought we where going out! i would lkye to but he's still getting over his last break up....5 months ago. very emotional as well as mentaly distrubed. So it's best that i just be there for him now, i dunn wanna hurt him anymore then he already is. But that doesn't change the fact that i still want to go out with him. i ride the bus home with him almost every day and sit with him most of the time. befor i left he told me that i was going to have to met him at Basken Robin's during the summer, because he stilled owed me that neoplotain ice cream even thought i ate his. I wonder what that meant? ^-~

Life goes on...

2004-04-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

I don't have much time, but i'm just relizing just how much i have acommphisped over the last few weeks. I was offered invitions to goes to things to study up on law and polictis, Arts and humminty and Computers. I've been ...i dunno i think im going through one of thouths stages.. I been doing things and getting offers and just getting so much that i'm spent right about now, and am not thinking clearly, i had oral the other day and i'm olny 13 years olds! not to say i didn't like it, i would do it again with the guy,ut still, i feel total out of charicter and just outta my right minded.. how longs has it been since i last posted on this thing anyways? dunno? omg, so much as happan tho, my friends bf was aressted for trying to bring a gun into the school, he was also caught with drugs with him. I told her that he was bad but she didn't listen to me but then again, who ever does. I alread told you about the oral sex but wow alot has happen well i gtg

Snowboarding

2004-03-16T20:39:00.000-08:00

I'm going to learn how to snowboard, I"M GOING SNOWBOARDING YAH!! the 8th grade goes on a ski trip very year and i get to go! yes! and Eavn going with me ^-^ so happy. I just realizeld that he's going to turn 15 this year and i'm going to turn 14, Ugh i hope he started late, i can't see my slef going out with someone stuipd, but i love Eavn, i just can't tell if he likes me -_- Anyways today was very eventfull. first, i talked with Eavn, then we sang the body part song in japansens (Atama, kata,heza,ashi,heze,ashi...luv that song) got a C in math and a B in mr katz, the hardest class in our school and talked to Eavn even more! so yah a you can see to today was a good day

Hey can you read this?

2004-03-12T19:55:00.000-08:00

hey sto scrivendolo questo nel beacuse italiano latta, woulld di i scrivo questo nel giapponese ma non ho gli attrezzi per fare quello più. Così ciao ed arrivederci a voi tutti
in ogni modo sono andato su un viaggio di flide l'altro giorno ed era giusto realmente. ho pensato non sterà andando come ad esso perché realmente non gradisco la storia, ma era genere di freddo per vedere che che cosa hanno avute più io ha ottenuto uscire della scuola anche!
Now if you can read this, tell me
molti baci e bye-bye lol

love me hate me

2004-03-12T19:21:00.000-08:00

mood: cunfused

The one thing i wawnna know right now is: Does Evan love me, hate me or just doesn't really care for me? I mean he's just been going throught mood swing so often now!Two days ago, he was all nice to me and wouldn't stay away (not that i mind but) then yesterday he acted as if i wasn't there and then today he was all mad at me for NOTHING! i swear this guy has some pms issues! Also my friend Maryam the one who never gets into trouble just got in school sepenchen (iss) ans she like it! what the hell is worng with theses people! I'm going to have to start finding some new friends if thing keep go the way they are..

kitties!

2004-03-12T08:12:00.000-08:00

mood: happy

Ohh! look at the cute kitties! not that i really like kitties but anime kitties are so cute, cuz they can't bit you can you can make them do whatever you want them to! they really are nice and cute... you can see the one's i adopted here or you can get your own here

Anyways right now am at school first peroid... my mom took the computer out of my room and put it in my brothers. Now she's on it 24/7 so i hardly get a chance to do anything on it anymore. I can wait until 8 grade is over, than i can get my laptop. and it can go in my room and i can be on all day with out having to 'bother anyone'

okay ... I want my soup and i want it NOW!!

2004-03-05T18:58:00.000-08:00

Mood:clam

I need to be sick more often,i mean people did everything for me! plus i got E-card from many people so that made me really happy and the best part of it all was that there was no school at all!(thought i did study alot today) but all good things have to come to an end, and now i feel better. Good thing today is friday

i feel sick...

2004-03-05T11:42:00.000-08:00

mood: sick

I want my soup and juice now. that about all i can eat right now. my head, neck, legs and sthomth hurts so badly right now.. I't been just an alful week. the olny good thing about it is thst i didn't have to go to school for most of the week. I'm gald about that. also being sick gave me a chance to update and fixs my website which you can see here @ ravenever.tk or here @ freewebs.com/ravenever/htm. I'm proud to say that i did the layout all by my slef thank you ^-^. anyway tomorow there's suspost to be a moldeling contest at one of our loacl shopping malls. I hope i'm not sick then because i want to go. I'm not going to model (there to preppy for me and you should know how i feel about preppy) but most of my friends are because they are all hella skinny and tall and like doing things like that. I'm more of a tom boy/ sporty girl so yah. well i have to go study for my big test in ss class which is sad because i'm sick and all i'm thinging about is study for a test. Yup that just proof that i'm am a nerd....

I'm gald to feel sick....

2004-03-04T19:45:00.000-08:00

mood: sick

I want my chinken noodle soup. not now but right now! I have a soar throt, my head hurts and i'm on my period? yeah most of you problebly think it's just pms, but it's not. In fact the only two good things about today is that one ) i didn't have to go to school and two) my computer is working again!*dances* anyway. i fixed up my website so now it's url isRavenever.tk it still suxs and i didn't do much to it because of the fact that i'm sick. I also got to talk to my two bested friends in the world today. Ben and kathleen. it was great! now i'm kind happy

Guess who was back today!

2004-02-23T20:22:00.000-08:00

mood: very happy

EAVN!! i haven't seen him for two weeks and now i know he's okay! it was nice talking to him again, even if he's a little bit of a crack head. I also got promoted to second co-editor in yearbook! ^-^ and best of all, track was too full so i got to leave! Yippy!, if only all days where this good...You wanna know what would make the world a better place? if all the prep where be rid of. Not to be mean but, preps get on my nevers because they act so stuck up and well prepy! They are really a bad influenceto this growing contry of America. Seapking about bad influences on american, Bush really need to get out of the white house. Ever snice he became president ,america has slipped into the era of THE DARK DAYS... okay don't ask what that mean 'cause neirther do i but you get the picture. Bush is stuipder than a can of bean basically and he tells us that it's the U.S intelligent fault (who ever they are). Some commander and chief we've got. Anyway, i won't let Bush nor any preps ruin this perfect day of mines!

Quiz i took...

2004-02-22T23:39:00.000-08:00

You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Back tomorrow

2004-02-22T23:14:00.000-08:00

mood: relaxed

it's 11:30 and tomorrow i have to go back to my school =.= Yah geart, well at leas it have my friends to look to for support, i think anyway. I did alot today, went to church, wachted two movies and cleaned my room. I also worked sum on my webby, but not much cause i just didn't feel like it. I called me best friend in the world today too and she said that we we're going to do track. I don't see how i can do it thought 'cause i'm totaly booked very monday being one of the yearbooks co-eitder. I also swimg and play tennis already and for god sake,i don't need to be doing anything eles at the moment. But she already signed me up for cross-contry, so i guess i had better get my gear ready, oh well. i took a long bath today useing peperrment oils and creamel cream tea and i feel sooo refreshed now. i also but on a kiwi face mask and now my face is all smooth and nice and pretty again!

Funni

2004-02-21T18:11:00.000-08:00

Mood: on crack(but not really)

Great,just great I'm in the dark 'till tomorrow! No really I am, I have to where sunglasses all the time. I'm wearing 'em right now! and it's sooo dark. but atleast the doctor wasn't mean at all. She was funny.not to say that i liked going there. It hurted like hell when when she dealateded me or whatever it's called. My mom thought it was funny. She is really starting to get on my nevers right now. And she thinks it me having all the mood swings. Ha! that a lie! she'll tell me one thiing then tell me to do the completr oppsited! God i hate when people do that!

i'm also pissed out at the moment because i dunno what's wrong with Eavn! i haven'y seen him snice the 10th and i'm wondering if he's sick. i don't knowand i'm pissed 'cause he's not telling me! Nobody tells me anything!. I'm mad. I need aa hug. I also just got word that one of my best friends got kicked out of her house because her mom found out that she was talking to older guys(like 20-30). I feel so sorry for her! and now she won't go to high school with us?!?! High school is EVERYTHING!!! she just has to go with us! But her grandma lives on the other side of the state so yah, we won't see her that often. Why in the world did she have to be soo wild? High School life just won't be the same without her

I doctor

2004-02-21T09:55:00.000-08:00

Mood:sick

My mom is taking me to the eye doctor today.How fun isn't? Ugh, i hate doctors (even thought i want to be one) because they are the brings of pain for no reason!I mean all they do is shot you up with needles and give million of pills to take that you know you don't need but they give it you anyway. I just want to stay home and play games or shop, or eat or chat...anything besides going to the doctor...

Running scared

2004-02-20T22:09:00.000-08:00

mood: freaked out/ sad

I'm not scared, just not feeling ok, that's all.I really need to stop talking to strange people on the web because now i have a person always sending me stuff that i don't wanna see(if you know what i mean good for you, if you don't then oh well) I should have known better when the same thing happened to my friend, but nope. I think I'm addicted to talking with people on the web...I'm feeling bored. I read all the AF(Artemis fowl) and HDM (His dark materials) I care to read and now there's nothing to do. I feel like falling back on my bed and dreaming my life away. but, i'm not. I think i'll find a new friend on the webby.

I AM SMART ^,^

2004-02-20T19:49:00.000-08:00

Mood: Creative

I just saw my old crush just two hours ago. It was really nice seeing him for the first time in like two year!but it's strangely freaky that Robert (old) looks like Eavn (new). I wonder if they are related? they sure look like it. Anywayz i'm happy 'cause i was kicked off the computer for a long long LONG time just because i got a 'D' in Jap. class. but I'm back online now, and i've updated my website too! i did the layout all by myself and i think i did a great job on it. if you wanna see it for yourself (thought it's not done) you can see it HeRe
I took an IQ test yesterday and this is what i got:

"Congratulations, monica! Your IQ score is 113 This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results." I'm smart! Ha and ya'll just thought i was a wired-good-for-nothing-teenage-phyopath!(and i'm not)